Saturday, November 26, 2011

A Weird Personality

Mood: Refreshed!

Listening to: Reunion (Assassin’s Creed Revelations OST)

Writing: Poetry (Immortal’s Lament)

Playing: The Elder Scrolls Skyrim

Watching: Spectacular Spiderman

Drinking: Coffee

hmm..its 2.30 am, and i don’t remember passing out at night 6 hours before…but i feel refreshed like i have never been in my entire life. Maybe i have to find something of my sleeplessness. Staying awake for 2-3 days in stretch , surely takes its toll by me passing out at an unfortunate moment.yet here i sit sipping coffee and reading stuff that should never matter to me..but out of plain curiosity. but that’s not the point why i am like typing this in the middle of the night.

have you ever had like a certain, what’s the word??…something like a fetish…not exactly the weird perverted thing you are thinking, but a certain kind of obsession which until you satisfy takes over your mind?? I know its really weird, and by weird i mean apocalyptic weird, not just some minor trifle.

I am not talking about what i crave for, but lets just say..its really not worth publishing on a blog…but it does get me obsessed, really obsessed, until i get what i want, and then there is this sick feeling of guilt and  self realization, which takes me back to my original self. It lasts for a 2-3 days to a week, and then again i get obsessed. Its like a weird sort of personality i take over,or rather it takes over me.

Many of you may have noticed, i talk weird things sometimes, which may seem illogical, or sometimes i just forget..but i think its a part of this personality, or that personality.i don’t exactly know.

I dont suffer from MPD though, its because i know of me and my various forms.  But i hate that obsession thing which infects my mind, and thought i may try to control it, it gets the best of me.

but i always felt, we don’t harm anyone,not even ourselves, then its not a problem is it??

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