Just something I have always felt

 Despite my attempts, I consistently feel like an outsider within society, not in a maladjusted way, but as if I operate on a different frequency. I often wonder if this is simply how I'm built. My passions, like art and science, are filtered through a uniquely morbid and unconventional lens, which I believe explains why people tend to avoid me. And honestly, I don't mind. The common human dramas, like heartbreak, don't resonate with me, and I confess to finding a certain satisfaction in observing others' vulnerabilities. I hold a profound conviction that the human race is inherently flawed and self-destructive, prioritizing performative respect and reactive measures over genuine progress. Yet, I endure among them, a singular entity. Any initial judgments about my demeanor are merely superficial until we genuinely connect